The first time I saw Ricky was in "The Last Flight of Noah's Ark" in 1980.
I was only 9, but I remember being jealous of his friend in the movie, and I wanted desperately to be his best friend.
I didn't understand my feelings, but I know I was obsessed with wanting to know more about him.
I made my parents rent "The Champ" just so I could watch more of the boy with the blonde hair and the bright blue eyes.
By the time Ricky was in "Silver Spoons" in 1982,
my crush had developed to the point that I would hide my sister's Tiger Beat magazines, so I could look at the pictures of Ricky, alone by myself.
I still hadn't figured out exactly why I wanted to know as much about him as possible, as I stared at every picture and read about his "likes/dislikes." But I did know that these feelings were to be kept hidden, especially from my older brother.
I feel like I grew up with Ricky, and by the time I recognized this crush on him during "Silver Spoons," I started to come to terms with the idea that I was gay. While I wouldn't come out to my family for many years, I'll always remember my first crush.
Bobby - West Hollywood, CA
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