I talked about him endlessly at home and at school, and never missed an episode of "Starsky & Hutch."
I didn't feel pressure to hide my romantic adoration of this gorgeous man.
Which was accompanied by a need and a longing I had yet to understand.
Soon after I started middle school, a classmate spotted a favorite photo I'd pasted into an exercise book. Whatever it was he said, I was mortified that my adoration meant I might be seen as gay.
So, after the 2 years of innocent pleasure I'd enjoyed loving him, I dumped my crush. And with those feelings of shame, I took the first steps into the closet. A place I wouldn’t break out of until many years later.
Malcolm - London, UK
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